Saturday, February 12, 2005
heya! back le! CNY tis yr's cool...haha...went back Indo to visit my relatives over there...its been soooooo long since i've seen 'em le..haha...all my younger couz so cute....!!! Cant resist squeezin their cheeks..hek hek...1 boo pt..i dun lyk to speak hokkien in front of moi parents de..den they all speak hokkien dere de..so bo bian..sometimes hafta jus say it...younger bro so yue lai yue shuai! Den those gals so cute..haha..too bad it was so rush lor..went in in the morn den rush to take e last ferry at nite cos fri got sch...#Q%#%...hahaha...i went back wif my parents n wif my couz (back to visit my tis couz's family) We chatted most of de time...den in e aftnn we kids end up in e rm slacking..haha..den me n couz slpt...while e kids cont' playing outside..we slpt in e rm..haha..pigz..den evening cont' shopping..den eat dinner..chat even more..den rush hm..haha.
tis yr red pkts not much..haha..seems lyk red pkt income not v stable for me le..must find job le..haha..cos i wanna go do so many stuff...wanna learn driving too...everytink needs $$$ haha...tis yr not much CNY mood either...cos got classes la...spoilt everytink..haha..den silly cell bio ppt..make me sian even more..tis wed due..den bo bian...gotta do too...wd...haha
anyway, i m in a good mood la...jus sian onli...weather's here hot n stuffy...den haze seem to get worse..smell of it sux..haha...wadeva e case..my grp started on the ppt le..so i m more relieved now..haha...
Gonna b a busy wk for me...tml goin out...till nite..haven done tutorials..mon SAG rehearsal..Tue guitar...wed cell bio ppt...fri SAG performance..sat SAG performance...haha...filled! haha..but all these are sch stuff la..so i m still free in A WAY[shi jian shi zi ji an pai de]...*winkz*...haha...
everytime when i m quite busy my blog becomes less close to heart...jus mere updating..haha..sori abt tt..but bear wif it kkz? Gonna b more relax SOON..hehe...
Ok..jus gonna blog till here for now...ciao...
*At times, we all search for meaning in our lives, often in vain. Perhaps the answer is not to find meaning, but to give it? And into every life a lil' rain must fall...how we deal wif every pour'll shape our future..so do giv some tot..and not losing courage wif every fall we get from it....* -tis is for doiz n everyone else..haha...including moiz...=)
6:58 PM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Yoz...as i said i'll b back to tell moi OBC marks..it sux...i tink i can b psychic le..i said 12m/50 confirm gone le..den realli...i got 37.5/50 for e paper...hahah....didn't walk outta LT cos i passed...but gt quite mad initially. E tutor din bother to mark e rest of my ans. when 1 mistake is made at the front of my ans. Means she nv error bring forward...so cld've gotten abt 80+ ...but nvm la...75%...B+...haiz..cannot say i m unhappy cos its quite heng le i must say..judgin by how much i prepared 4 tis test..hahah..=)
Was supposed to meet my fren for movie..Constantine..but i no mood rite aft e lects..so went hm...den i said next day lor..cos he evening also got reunion dinner...haha...so i went hm slack...den saw doi doi online! haha...these few days busy nv chat le den whoa! Chat for abt 5hrs lor..did u realize it doiz? haha...*shyz*...hek hek...*censored content* hahaha...got to noe so much more abt ya! *grinz* =pPp
Tml goin grandma hse bai nian...gotta c sickening relatives again..gotta bear their criticisms n stand their head-to-toe scruntiny again...eekz....for my dad's sake, i will accept it...haiz..every yr's lyk tt...haha..same procedure, same pple, same comments....NVM..its onli 1 day...haha...den aft shld b goin hm slack le...i tink...Den thur goin back indonesia...visit my relatives..miss them! Been ages since i last went back...hahaha...
Oh ya 1M02 pple, e rate for zoo is $14, 8am-6pm. den rate for Night safari is $18, 6pm-12am i tink..den faster way is go to AMK mrt or CCK mrt den change bus...see u all how lor...haha...but ehz...i hafta do Cell bio ppt in e aftnn 1st la so most prob night safari can? =)))
8:20 PM
Monday, February 07, 2005
hiz...backy to blog...jus feel lyk coming here to c c...so jus type a little la..hekhekz...finally get to slp aft 3 days le...knock out yest by 12+am..din even set alarm clock..luckily can still auto wake up by 8am 2day..still can make it for lessons...
did a whole lot of waiting 2day...got to sch for tutorial at 10..till 11pm..den shld hav cell bio tutorial n lect..but cancelled..so hafta wait from 11-3pm for lect...den 3-5lect finish..wait from 5-6 for drama rehearsal..den 7pm got for technical rehearsal wif the big grps..so wait n wait n wait...luckily found some stuff to do in between..sianz.
tml gonna take back OBC paper...sianz..i tot i cld score..but tink cant le..cos i realize frm my fren tt i misread a few stuff...so../50 m..abt 12m confirm gone le..sianz...hope its not true..but tink it is...cos i tink i m wrong..haha...HAIZ...but nvm la...altho' this test alr 10-20%...but no choice la..try to catch up using final exam results baz...SIANz...doiz ur potion works 1/2 way...hek hek...i noe how to ans...but misread..=S...no la..maybe ish i blur blur tt's y...nvm...i will try next time kz?? =)
Tml sch gonna hav 1/2 day...12pm release le...maybe gonna go catch a movie wif my fren...but i duno..cos i told tiff le...if i fail my OBC...i dun care abt cell bio lect le [cos dun even noe she giving back ppr anot]...i WILL walk str out of LT..not to be rude..but i stay also wun haf the mood to listen..haha...so c how baz...may/may not b watching show..hahah....if v v v badly done..den at most sad awhile den i ok le..haha...there's still a next time...haha...dun worry guys..=)
will blog to tell ya my grades kkz? haha...bb...
P.S-everyone: Chinese New Yr coming le....wanna wish all a VERY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR 2005! Bless everyone wif good health...good grades..and...better looks? hahaha....wanna come out hav fun? Call me kkz? hahahah...
P.S-doidoi dear: wah...CNY le..celebrating over there? haha...c la...there good meh...shld come back ma..den got CNY mood...den got moi somemore =SSS haha...okok...jkjk..haf fun there kkz? *muackz*
P.S-nu er de baz: dun jealous kkz? ni yong yuan shi wo nu er e baz..fang xin...muahahah..can dun say nothin...*hugz*--> for keeping e cute pig on ur com.=)) Jer say he can le...up to us..who's goin? i noe tiff me shiya jer n u can...others..?
10:35 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005
hello...haha...din blog e past 2 days cos it was too packed le! haha..had much fun..hekhek. Shall jus briefly say wad i did la...lolx.
i had my last paper OBC on fri..harder than expected...i guess most pple gave up 1/2 way..haha..it was a 1 n 1/2 hr paper..many leave the LT before 45min...=S I din noe how to do a few qns too...i cant recall the conditions n eqns *darn* but i jus tried la...wrote some crap wif MY OWN logic, hoping tt it will be correct..haha. Aft tt my class clique n i went to slack n play pool...my pool still sux as usual..haha..but i dun mind goin la..cos they r sorta accompanying me till 6pm be4 i go meet my ex-class pals at bugis. Den we left ard 6, they also went to meet my frenz wif me..haha..buden they start walking by themselves la..cos they paiseh mah..hehe..
Finally met up wif KT..we went to eat Sakae sushi..yumyum..den chit chat walk walk..oh n took neoprints..haha..laminate le..^_^ We jus loiter ard bugis till 10 den we walk separate ways le...jer-monkey, kel n mic followed me back to my hm..to play mahjong! haha..reach hm..all took turns to bathe den start playing ard 12am..haha..played till 6am...den kel n jer buay tahan so we stop le. We actuali playing $$$ [for fun la] but we ke lian kel cos he need to pay the most le..haha..so nvm..he treated us drink [grassjelly]. Den we slpt from 6+ till 8+ den dilly dally..played MONOPOLY...!I won by luck! Played till aftnn den go eat lunch den they go hm le..wow...tiring sia...that's NOT ALL!
Its alr Sat aftnn alr rite? Den aft they went back i went to bathe...haha..ard 4+ in the aftnn, my usual mahjong khaki came...they wanna play mahjong mah..haha..oh n its reunion dinner for my hm cos we cant make it on tue so made it yest. So end up preparing food, den eat den played MORE MAHJONG till next day 8am...hahah...i won $$$ tis time..not alot..cos we decided to lower the worth of the chips since 1 fren lose e most den we tong qing her too..haha..We went to slp awhile aft clearing the mess..hah..slpt for abt 1hr + den woke up le..cos i promised to meet JJ to go lib find books wif him for his project...he asked on Sat but i busy mar..so today lor..haha..
So, he called ard 10+ ask to meet..but i v tired..so say meet later..haha..aft washing up n having lunch wif my pals n family, den i went to tampines meet him..went lib...got a few books myself too..haha..den help him find his le..den we go TM walk walk..den he ask wanna watch movie..but i got no time...cos i hafta be hm LATEST by 6pm cos i haf reunion dinner wif my paternal's side relatives...so he say next wk lor..haha..anytink..We cont' walking den i wanna go c c look look at the guitar shop den went in n was stuck in it for quite awhile..haha..too bad for him..lolx. Den he say he wanna borrow some notes from me (which i dun understand y cos its so chim) n followed me back to my home...sian diao...at 1st i din lyk e idea of him coming cos my parents saw us a couple of times alone den later they duno any link den i will -_-llllllll le...but nvm la..he came..den i pass him e notes n he jus slack in my hm till i gtg out..grr...still tot i can slp awhile..
Phew....really tiring wkend sia! Nv slp for more than 2 days le..eek... unbelieveable... haha...enjoyed myself too la..but tink when i slp i surely knock out wan..haha...anyway, i jus came hm from the reunion dinner..ate steamboat...not too bad..but feel so much lyk a glutton le..haha..gotta cut down aft new yr le..if not i will not b a healthy cow...keke..
OK la..sorta update most of e happenin tinks these few days le..blog tml baz....=)
*Nothing is goin on n nothing will b...*
8:46 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
hey there...finally u all can see e words...haiz...u jus need a pure genius to get it done without the help of a comp pro wahaha...but too bad...sotong cant access..and the funny tink is, we cant view my blog now from IE explorer..duno wad's the prob..maybe change it sometime later or so baz...i wanna stick to it for now..haha.
2day was another wasted day la...i always find e last paper zui nan ao...haha..cos its lyk freedom's so near yet so far...din study much thru' out these days at hm cos no sense of urgency..haha..only tis morn read thru' once..den maybe later jus flip thru notes den go zzz le...jer-monkey came over AGAIN..my god...sianz...why cant some OTHER pple come over instead of him..gettin sick...oppz...jus joking la....tiff la...go buy wad Hp...pui...hekhek..
feeling quite pissed now...yesterday i was jus mentioning abt pple repeating mistakes or faults...den today it happened to someone i noe again...i m lyk thoroughly disappointed in her again la. Tml we r suppose to meet KT mah..so long nv c le...if not must wait till her next hol back to Sg le..den me n a few of my pals r suppose to go..n she's supposed to come too..den she was e one who kept pestering me these few days abt where to meet, wad to do, where to eat etc. Den KT almost cldn't meet us cos her mum din wan her to leave M'sia since causeway might jam due to NY crowd n stuff..so we were lyk tinking if can den we will meet her n stuff la. Den KT called jus now n said she can make it so we agreed to meet la. Den my tis fren was lyk so enthu n stuff abt it, den she jus called n say she might not come cos she got sth on (which i assume is not v impt)...i mean...u r e 1 that was so enthu to meetin her la..den now u jus push it off to me sia..i mean tis is a small matter la...but it reflects alot on ur personality lor...after numerous times la...
Doin my part as wad a fren...i accepted ya thru' out these yrs..same as the rest...treated u as part of us..den ur attitude still sux...everyone has flaws...but we shld change for the better wad...most imptly for ourself..if U were lyk gone n lost in ur own world for a long time ah...i wldn't hav bothered...cos u r always not wif us..even when u say u r...we noe u aren't..but we tried believing u somehow. But i REALLY DUN UNDERSTAND...why EVERYTIME when things seem to return to normal n well...u start ur nonsense again. We build trust wif each n every move we make..every single detail counts...some frenz said me n my pal shld jus let u go..treat u as a normal fren..forget abt our ke ku ming xin de you yi...some say if we r ur true frenz we shld not even huai yi ni...i duno..Y isit always abt U...why the rest of our pals dun seem to haf such a prob? Esp. me n xxx(dun wanna mention) dun haf a prob..no matter how far we r or how long we nv MEET...e strong bond is still there....I once gave up a fren whom i was getting on well to remain as a loyal fren to u...cos i tot our frenship was more precious...xxx almost did tt too...i m not proving how magnanimous i m..but jus stating an eg. of how much we r willing to giv up, tis is jus 1 eg, u noe nothing...even when i m so so disappointed in u once again..i nv doubt my choice to choose u as my pal...i jus wanna u to regain my trust once n forever...
in my life...i can say friends family n loved ones r the ones tt keep me goin on wif my life....even my goals n aim...i lay it out for dem...of cos pple say ultimately its we (who lay goals n achieve it) who gain it...but without anyone or anytink to pull me/others thru...how strenuous it could b can ya imagine...i can say i m charmed wif a few good pals...a few is enuff...that's not all...i hav a great bunch of classmates n frenz too..so why shld i bother rite wif U rite? haiz..maybe its becos i cherish U lyk M too....cant u be more sensitive to us? Having said tt, haiz, i dun feel any better, jus wanna let it all out n clear my mind so i hav da mood to read up my notes later...sorri guys for writing too much jus abt 1 matter...
Anyway tml meeting KT, tink its gonna b fun cos its been quite sometime since we've meet up yeah? haha..kt arh dun qn me abt who THAT person above is...i m sure u'd haf guessed it le..but nv expect tinks are lyk tt rite...haha nvm...dun need to probe..its nothin..jus ANOTHER passing phrase..dun worry abt it yeah? =)
Ok la...shan't blog anymore le...gonna go bathe le...so byez....
Main moltivation to get thru tml: Finish CT, Meet KT n pal, Meet doi doi online! haha...Ohhh...n mahjong the next day!hahaha....=)
8:03 PM
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
haha...i m back...wif a new look again..tis time not jus change the bg, but e whole skin...wahaha...u can c hw bored i m. I tried studyin le...but aft flippin thru i jus shut off...maybe i'll try again later.
Tis blogskin...abit depressin ehz? sorri la..if u r lookin 4 a blog to cheer u up now...its definitely not mine *at least not now* haha. Tis skin struck me tis morn..when i was jus browsing thru some skins..den i edited it a lil' la...oh..and the song..haha...if u dun lyk evanescence, paiseh...wait till i change it...wahaha...cos i quite lyk e lyrics now...i m back to my old me...
Oh...and dun miss e tagboard yeah? Its below the song files n stuff in e top left box of the screen...do scroll down..haha...i m lazy to move it up...maybe later again..lolx. Jer-monkey came over to study...but we both no moltivation..hahah....end up he left ard 4+pm..den i tahan till 5+ den stop...hahah...1 good news...my dad BOUGHT A MAHJONG TABLE...hahahahaha..yeh! He noes my frens might b coming over to play mahjong next wk..den so decided to go get one aft so long!! Finally a PROPER mahjong table...hahahh...*grinz*
I hav been wonderin nowadays m i jus been uncontented wif my life. Many say i shld b happy wif wad i haf, but y i seem to find myself in a whirl everytime when i look back. Pple always say we haf to reflect, we reflect so past mistakes wun b repeated, but why history jus keeps repeating...why we jus cant learn from e past n make a smart move the next time n not fall into the same hole once again. Dun worry, i m jus pondering..tis is jus part of my tots...it does not imply to anyone...jus wondering...cos we always use the word "regret". I regret doing tis...i shldn't have done tt...if i'd known...blah blah blah...does it help saying all these aft e same mistake is repeated? Why cant we jus LEARN...>.<
Ok..shldn't type so much...shld jus FOCUS on my NEW blog look...haha...hope u dun feel depress aft entering my blog yeh? Jus lyk to stick to the dark side at e moment..cos i dun see why i shld b glad now...hahahah...(no underlying meaning between e words) Jus to lighten e atmosphere abit aft so much crap. 1 tink i m quite sure of myself now is tt i m trying to live my life without regrets...TRYIN la...cos i hate it when i hafta REGRET doin anything. =)
*None of us r flawless, but we can b flawed yet still hav a worthiness of character.*
5:34 PM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
hey pple. i had my 2nd paper 2day. Yest had my physio paper n 2day cell bio. Physio was lyk a piece of shit. I expect it to b easier...cos its lyk bio..bt guess my brain cells din store enuff facts remb most stuff..haha...hope'll still b alrite. 2day cell bio was quite ez i guess...finished e paper in lyk 1hr/2hr...den stone dere. The fact tt i stone dere is a waste of my time cos i shld've check thru my paper. For instance, i can b so silly as to 4get dere's onli 1 N-end of amino acids n carelessly wrote e wrong ans down when i noe e ans liao...shito.. haiz.. But today's test was more of a breeze compared to physio baz..
Now i m waiting for fri's arrival...den finish CT! Can go enjoy wif KT n pals on fri! Den can happily eat reunion dinner...den go back indo c relatives(miss them!)...den play my guitar..i m so in love wif my guitar now..duno why...oh ya cant wait to learn more simple violin songs too..muahahaha
and tiff arh, wad's ur prob? haha...i got gf liao...now happy le..haha..wad a wonderful new yr to start wif...wahahaha...decided to be bisexual..hahahh...>.<
8:06 PM
